#maneater

#maneater

Okay, girls dont we all feel like sometimes we are maneaters? I mean we flirt then they flirt and we flirt some more then he gives you his number and you say it is not you it is me I am just not ready to date at this moment..so now you have broken his heart. Boom! It is all over.. For what? For a game? For you to get some kind of approval of the opposite gender that you are hot, beautiful, smart and sexy…I mean how dare we! I am found guilty of this I couple times but I am not sure how to stop all of it ..I mean I am genuinely attracted to him each time, I am not doing it to just any guy I am attracted to them each time but this flirting game is fun for me but at the end not for him. I am just hoping this all plays out nicely and not messy with this guy. But if I am totally honest it should be okay, right?
I need to just chill about it and let it take care of itself. And I need to pray a lot πŸ™‚ I like him alot but the age thing, oh man!
Ttyl πŸ˜‰

Feeling Sexy and Signing off! πŸ˜‰

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#Reality and Relaxation

#Reality and Relaxation

So last night I read and listened to be others talk about finding your should mate and one really good point was that you have to be confident in yourself..not at first the point I was like no dah! But the more I thought about it all day today it really is true, you personally are not looking for a person who is unsure of him or her self so why would hour soul mate be looking for that? Right?
Today the guy I was tell you about yesterday gave me his number…I did not say I would text or call, I said maybe not a yes or no cuz at the moment I was unsure. But as I was at work today I thought about it objectively.. why do I want a relationship at this time? Why with him? Am a really ready for a serious relationship? Do I have time? The conclusion I came to was no I am not ready for a relationship because I have way too much I still feel like I should accomplish before I commit to someone, I need to launch my career and he is not the right guy..if I get my pick he does not even qualify beyond the first thing I need, yes he is hot but I have to look past that and say if it meant to be then maybe years down the road, you never know. I am no where near the need for a serious relationship, I just want to keep shopping for now and flirt as I may πŸ˜‰ And to be totally honest with a job, college, and three internships I do not have the time for a guy right now. Maybe the right guy will come along that I would not mind making time but for now and for Mr. Hotty I just can’t. Sadly, I am not sure when I will see him again to talk to him about that we cannot go any further since I will not be texting him. To be totally honest I am curious to see what his next move is since I am not going to text him. I have only had guys ask me for my number, and if a guy has given or should I say tried to give me his number I have a kind why of saying no. But this is the furthest I have ever let it go partially because I did not want to embarrass him front of my coworkers today when he gave me his number. I did not get a chance to talk to him any further than that. I hope he does not get mad at me, but I cannot simply tell him the things I need to tell him through a text message, I have more class than that. I will let you know what happens.
But for now and how I feel so okay with not dating anyone yet is on the drive home I was thinking of all the wonderful things and big things I want to accomplish just for me, myself. I was thinking that cuz of some wonderful work related things that happened at work today And how much potential I don’t even realize i have. You may think that sounds like a proud statement but at the moment I don’t need someone to hold me up in life, I can do that myself. I think that if I were to get into a relationship now and if is grows or fails that I would need him or someone else to rely on and I don’t want to have that.
We will see where the wind takes us πŸ˜‰
I am not worried, truly I am not..thanks again for listing to me.
Have a great day! πŸ™‚

Feeling Sexy and Signing off! πŸ˜‰

# what is love

# what is love

What is love— this is something that I have really go over for days. They say that when you are not looking for love you find it. Is that true, idk. I am not really looking for love but yes I am but in the unconventional way..I don’t just walk to a guy and start flirting. I mean come on. I just haven’t met the right one..I have just a few things that I really want in a guy. There is one particular guy in my life right now, but he only meets one of them…I do not know if I can live with the rest. I mean sure he is hot, handsome, has a great body, smart and so very very hot. But there are two major things he is not, and I can’t face it. I really thought I could finally say I was dating and tell u about it but nope all lost. We probably will still flirt though, he and  I but nothing serious. I sure hope it does not become awkward for us when he does ask me out, cuz I am now thinking of how to say no or maybe in a few years. Why oh why couldn’t he have been younger!!!!!!! (Oh so now you know one of the things…I like to date guys who are at least close it my age. Astounding, isn’t it :/ lol ) the fact that he is older like really older that there is a huge blow, I am not sure if it is the same way for him though. He did not seem to mind, maybe he liked that part, idk. 
Girl talk, and guys may agree but in a different way like if the tables were turned for I am about to say. Okay, so this really beyond really hot hot guy..I cannot believe that when I do really cuz right now I am sort of in the dating world that I could land such a hot guy and have him come up to me. I love gentlemen..it is so romantic πŸ˜‰ when a guy just wants to just “be on the street where you live” really? No one it is from My Fair Lady. Where the guy is just so hopelessly in love with her and just wants to be around her. Okay, so that is not what a gentleman is ..I got off on the wrong track but you get that point I love the romance. Some of you are thinking “lame!! And that kind of love it not true!” Okay, before you go and to totally burst my bubble. At least let me learn that the hard way, if need be. Thank you πŸ˜‰ …so where was  I? A gentleman, they seem so far a few between, actually not really but one who is in love with you is hard to find that combo. I don’t want to be that desperate girl who longs and longs for love and everyone know about it and that my friends is why I have a blog. Lol , seriously though.
But I don’t want to be that girl that every guy has dated..I mean I still haven’t dated anyone. Maybe I am too picky, I seem to find something major wrong with the guy that I apparently just cannot live with and now I have done that to this new guy. It is not like I made a crazy long list. Okay, here is my criteria that it seems no guy yet can meet: -Has the same Faith as me ( this is the first thing on my list for a reason)
-Is around my age (still cannot believe I have now to add this to the list)
-Hard worker (he doesn’t have to be a millionaire just not at all lazy)
-Super in love with me and I with him( this should be a give in,right?)
-My family loves him and his family loves me (so we don’t ruin each other’s lives, duh! Lol seriously though)
Now, was that so hard to read? Nah. told you…I am not like: brown hair, green eyes etc. Seriously, get real who does that? But for the record I do have a type πŸ˜‰  and no it is not the brown hair and green eyes. πŸ™‚  and yes I am physically attracted to certain guys over others but that has no bearing on my short list of criteria.
This is a joke but, what I should do is have these questions printed on a piece of paper not let him check yes or no, do you know how much time we both would save. Haha πŸ™‚ also, on the list I should add: He has to be single and never married before and has no kids. (Ain’t no body got time for that! Lol really, seriously though)
I think this little and now long chat with myself and you is over, but feel free to jump in anytime you want. πŸ™‚
Ttyl

Feeling Sexy and Signing off! πŸ˜‰

#after all this shit

#after all this shit

After all this shit that we go through every day we come home and just relax sometimes…but their are some days where coming home is like more work and their seems to be endless things to do. But when we come home to poeple we love all is okay but when we don’t have anyone to come home to sometimes that is good to cuz all you want to do is chill and not say a word ..but that is not always the case, you find yourself sad and lost as you realize that this is the point in your life where you are, in the middle of boyfriends and family not around, friends busy with crap.
Finding myself almost in the situation, maybe it is just cuz I had a simi horrible day due to an annoying thing that happened at work but it is all good cuz you just have to roll with the punches and awkwardness lol ….very true though.
Ttyl ‘s sexy  πŸ˜‰

Feeling Sexy and Signing off! πŸ˜‰

#dreamed about a guy

#dreamed about a guy

So last night I dreamed about the guy I have been telling you about, the one I work with…it was some kind of dream I mean WOW! that is all I can say…in the dream he came over to my house to meet my family but before that we were sort of cuddling in bed, we did not do it and in real life obviously we gave not done it either so it was a very clean dream. The reason I am telling you is cuz I am not sure why I was thinking about him in my sleep, I mean I did not work with him earlier that day. Idk why u dreamed about him.
Ttyl πŸ˜‰

Feeling Sexy and Signing off! πŸ˜‰

#im that girl

#im that girl

Have you ever just felt like “that girl”, that girl who could go out with all the guys she wants but instead becomes too pick that she does not even know what she is really attracted to. Well, this is where I find myself. Laying on my bed alone as it is raining outside thinking about the choices I have made and who I have become. I love who I am, so please don’t doubt that. I just want someone to love me and me love him back. I have had this wall up for so long cuz I am scared for whatever reason, I really don’t want to get into the now. Okay, so there is this guy who I workΒ  with, he is so cute and funny and he looks at me with eyes of love…I love that he does :)…. but you know he is in a relationship with another girl. I think he has fallen in love with me πŸ™‚ I am think I am falling in love with him.
I want to date someone that loves me, everything about me and that I love him and everything about him.
Only time will tell what will happen with us cuz I don’t think the girl should make the first move..the guy should πŸ™‚ I know I am old fashioned about that but I just find it more romantic for the guy to ask the girl out.
If this guy were to ask me out…I have been thinking about how to answer πŸ˜‰

Feeling Sexy and Signing off! πŸ˜‰